Vox Meditantis

If you could erase one trend from history, what would it be?

Wednesday, the nineteenth day of July, in the year of Our Lord fifteen hundred and seventy. A study within a merchant’s townhouse near Cheapside, in the city of London. The afternoon is close and airless, heavy with July heat. The room carries the sharp, ferrous smell of oak gall ink and the dusty sweetness of old vellum, laced beneath with the rank exhalation of the Thames at low tide drifting up from the street below. The Scribe sits at his great writing desk, ringed about by ordered towers of manuscript and a scatter of tested, rejected quills. A fresh sheet of parchment lies before him, blank and reproachful. He has written an opening sentence and drawn a slow, deliberate line through it. A second attempt follows: is read, and struck through. Then a third. The pen-stroke that erases it is unhurried; the action of a man long accustomed to his own disappointment. Through the narrow casement above him, the sky is a hard, pale blue. In the lane below, a printer’s boy cries out his latest handbill to the empty air and any who will hear.

Footsteps sound in the passageway outside, and the soft clatter of a wooden pail. The Scribe lifts his head.

THE SCRIBE: “Ho, there. Is that the girl with the candles? Come in, come in; do not linger in the passage like an uncertain spirit.”

The Maid enters: a young woman of perhaps sixteen or seventeen summers, barefoot against the heat, her apron grey with the morning’s labour, bearing a pail of water and a string of fresh tallow candles knotted over her shoulder. She surveys the room with a quick, bright sweep of her eyes.

THE MAID: “God give you good afternoon, Master. I am come for the spent candle-stubs, and Mistress bids me also fetch away the cup of small ale she sent at dinner, for she says it hath stood so long it will have turned to vinegar, and she would know whether you intend to live upon ink or upon something more becoming to a Christian body.”

THE SCRIBE: “Tell thy Mistress I shall drink the ale presently.”

THE MAID (already plucking spent candle-stubs from their holders with nimble, practised fingers): “You have not touched it.”

THE SCRIBE: “No.”

THE MAID: “You shall not until I am gone.”

THE SCRIBE: “Very likely not.”

THE MAID (glancing at the desk with the frank, uninvited curiosity of the young): “There are a great many crossed-out lines upon that page, Master.”

THE SCRIBE (drily): “There are always a great many crossed-out lines. That is the condition of my profession. Sit thee down a moment; I would speak with thee.”

THE MAID (pausing in her work, surprised): “With me, Master? I have the upper chambers yet to see to…”

She trails off. The Scribe is already gesturing to the stool by the cold hearth.

THE SCRIBE: “A moment only. Sit.”

She sets her pail down with a cheerful clatter and settles on the low stool, easy and unguarded as a sparrow alighting upon a garden wall. She is still turning a candle-stub between her fingers.

THE SCRIBE: “How long hast thou served in this household?”

THE MAID: “Since Candlemas, Master. Near six months.”

THE SCRIBE: “And before?”

THE MAID: “I was in service at a house in Bread Street. And before that, I was at home with my father, who was a tanner, and who died of a fever two winters past.”

THE SCRIBE: “He kept no written record of his affairs? No accounts? No journal of his days?”

THE MAID (with mild amusement): “He could not write, Master. He kept it all here.” (She taps her temple.) “And when he died, it went with him. Which, I suppose, was tidier than leaving towers of papers for others to puzzle over.”

The Scribe regards her in silence for a moment, something in his face going still and inward.

THE SCRIBE: “Thou sayest it lightly. Dost thou not feel the loss of it?”

THE MAID (the brightness dimming, briefly): “Sometimes. When I try to remember the sound of his voice. It is already… blurred, now. Like a face seen through moving water.” (She pauses.) “But he was not a man given to sitting still and dwelling. He would have said: get on with it, girl. The world doth not pause for mourning.”

THE SCRIBE: “Dost thou believe he was right?”

THE MAID (with a considered pause that reveals she is not quite as unthinking as her manner implies): “Some days. Other days I think he was merely avoiding the difficulty of feeling anything deeply. Which is perhaps another manner of going wrong.”

The Scribe nods slowly. He picks up his quill, examines the nib with the focused attention of long habit, and sets it down again without writing anything.

THE SCRIBE: “I have kept chronicles these four and twenty years. Records of the events of this city and this realm, set down as faithfully as God hath given me the means to do. The great upheavals of our age: the old faith and the new; the fires at Smithfield; the young king and the brief restoration of the Mass; the long settlement of Her Majesty’s reign; and now, this February past, the black news from Rome. The Bull of the Bishop of Rome, by which he doth declare Her Majesty Elizabeth no lawful queen, and doth loose the Catholic faithful of all Christendom from their oaths of allegiance to her, and doth call down upon this realm the ambitions of every foreign power that hath appetite for it. The printer’s boy in the lane below still cries his sheets about it, five months after the news first broke, for still the city cannot leave off fearing what it signifies.”

THE MAID: “I remember the fear in the streets when first the word spread. My mistress before this one wept. She said the Spaniards would come before harvest.”

THE SCRIBE: “Half the city said so. I was not without unease of my own.” (He is quiet a moment.) “But unease is not a chronicle. Unease is merely the weather of the mind. What I must set down is the substance of the thing: the true shape of what it signifies for this realm and for those who dwell within it. And I cannot find the words. I have tried and tried, and each attempt falls short of what I know to be right, and so I strike it out, and begin again, and again fall short.”

THE MAID: “By how much doth it fall short?”

THE SCRIBE: “That is the very torment of it. If I could measure the distance between what I write and what is right, I might perhaps bridge it. But the right account of the thing exists within me only as a feeling, as a knowledge I cannot wholly render, and no instrument will press a feeling faithfully into words.”

THE MAID: “It seems to me, Master, that if the thing is true, the truth is the whole of what is needed. Either the Bishop of Rome issued his Bull, or he did not. Either the city was affrighted, or it was not. What more remains?”

THE SCRIBE: “Everything more remains. Thou mightest as truly argue that a portrait painter need only record whether his subject hath two eyes or one, and what colour the coat, for that is the truth of the matter. But a portrait is not made of bare facts. It is made of light and shadow; of the quality belonging to that face alone; of the angle at which a man holds his head when he is afraid but will not let it be seen. The way a whole city hath a sound in times of crisis that is subtly other than its ordinary sound. These are truths also, and they are the truths a chronicle must carry, else it is merely a ledger of dates and decrees, of no more use to those who come after us than a grocer’s tally.”

THE MAID (quietly): “And thou canst not find those truths in words.”

THE SCRIBE: “I can find them in memory readily enough. I close my eyes and I see the morning the news came from Rome. The cold still in the February air; that leaden grey of the winter sky; the way the bells sounded across the rooftops in the early dark. But when I set my pen to the page, the memory stiffens. The life drains from it. What remains is this.” (He gestures at the sheet, with its succession of crossed-through lines.)

THE MAID (with sudden brightness, the thought arriving and leaving her mouth in nearly the same instant): “Then write it as thou hast just spoken it to me.”

THE SCRIBE: “I beg thy pardon?”

THE MAID: “Thou said: the cold in the February air, the grey of the sky, the sound of the bells. I could see it. I, who was not there, who have no care for the affairs of Rome, could see it plainly in the saying of it. Write it thus. Do not seek to make it grander than it is. The grander thou makest it, I think, the deader it grows.”

A silence. The Scribe looks at her steadily.

THE SCRIBE: “That is a wiser observation than I have had from any quarter this fortnight.”

THE MAID (a little drily): “I have noticed that such a sentence commonly ends somewhere about ‘from a maid who cannot read.’”

THE SCRIBE (a shade abashed): “I was going to say: from anyone. I have kept poor company of late; most of it my own.”

THE MAID (her brightness returning, quick as a candle catching): “You should go out, Master. The world is very lively at present.”

THE SCRIBE (with a slight, sad smile): “The world is always lively. Therein lies the difficulty. I was born with Saturn in the ascendant, as my mother’s physician used to tell her; the melancholic humour hath been my nearest companion these sixty years. It doth not quicken readily to liveliness.”

THE MAID: “Then it seems a poor choice of companion.”

THE SCRIBE: “The melancholic humour doth not ask to be chosen. It arrives, and settles, and remains. Like a lodger who never pays his rent but whom one cannot bring oneself to dismiss, for without him the rooms would grow too quiet.”

He rises stiffly from his chair, which creaks with the protest of old wood under long service, and moves to the casement. The sounds of the street drift up: the knock of iron wheel on cobblestone, a woman calling across the lane, the quarrelsome cry of a kite high over the rooftops.

THE SCRIBE: “Let me put a question to thee. An unusual one. Thou art at liberty to think me foolish for it.”

THE MAID: “I shall tell thee honestly if I do.”

THE SCRIBE (with a half-smile, still looking down at the street below): “I have no doubt of it. Here, then. If thou couldst blot out from the annals of time one prevailing custom or enduring folly of mankind, strike it clean away as I strike out these failed lines of mine, so that it had never taken root in the habits and hearts of men: what wouldst thou choose to erase?”

The Maid is still for longer than he expects. She has set down the candle-stub. She looks at her hands.

THE MAID (slowly): “War.” (She considers it, and then shakes her head.) “But that seems too vast, and I cannot well imagine the world without it. It is too old a thing. I would not know what shape the world would hold in its place.”

THE SCRIBE: “A fair difficulty. Think further.”

She is quiet again. When the thought arrives, her face shows it: a small, quick brightening, like a change in the light.

THE MAID: “I would erase the custom of speaking ill of those who are not present to answer for themselves. The whisper behind the hand. The word carried from mouth to ear about a person who is absent and cannot stand in their own defence.”

THE SCRIBE: “Many would count that a small thing to name.”

THE MAID: “It is not small. I have seen more harm done by a quiet whisper than by an open quarrel. An open quarrel is at least honest; both parties stand in it and know they do. But the whisper travels before the one it injures knows it hath been spoken. I have seen a woman lose her place in a household over something said about her in a room she was not in. The thing said was false. But truth had no defender present when it was most needed.”

THE SCRIBE (turning from the window, his voice lower): “Thou hast named a thing near the heart of my oldest grief. In my younger years, I knew a scholar of extraordinary capacity: a man whose memory was a wonder, and whose gift for rendering what he had witnessed into words was finer than aught I have since encountered. He was accused of heresy, not by open testimony sworn before God and lawful authority, but by whispers. Rumour carried from ear to ear, never sworn, never met in open court, yet serving well enough as evidence against him in the end. He was stripped of his place. His books were burned. His great work, the labour of his best years, was lost with the rest of his goods. He died in poverty. And because those who ruined him took care that no written record of his work should survive, it is now as though he had never lived. He left nothing that the fire could not reach.”

THE MAID (softly): “I am truly sorry for him.”

THE SCRIBE: “He would have written a finer chronicle than mine.” (He pauses; when he speaks again, his voice is drier, the feeling held behind long habit.) “But that is old grief, and I have held it long enough to wear it smooth. Let us return. Thou hast given me thine answer. Now I must give thee mine.”

THE MAID: “What wouldst thou blot out?”

He is silent. Somewhere below, a door bangs shut. The printer’s boy has fallen quiet at last.

THE SCRIBE: “The burning of written things.”

A pause.

THE MAID: “The burning of men? As at Smithfield?”

THE SCRIBE: “The burning of men is a great wickedness, and I would strike it away without a moment’s hesitation. But I speak now of the other burning: the destruction of written records. Of manuscripts and chronicles and the accumulated learning of ages. Not only the burning in fire, though God knoweth there hath been enough of that: the dissolution of the monasteries and the ruin of their libraries; the works of the ancient world lost to the ignorance or the malice of conquerors; the great libraries of the East, of which I have read in accounts now themselves half-vanished, that were put to the torch by men who thought what they could not comprehend deserved destruction. But I speak also of the subtler burnings. The suppression. The decree that a thing shall not be written, or, having been written, shall not be copied; or, having been copied, shall not be read aloud; or, having been read aloud, shall be answered with a charge of sedition. Every time a man of power hath chosen to preserve his authority by destroying the memory of what came before him, he hath committed an act of burning, whether parchment caught fire or no.”

THE MAID: “It seems to me that men of power will always do such things, as long as there are men of power. Is it not in the nature of the beast?”

THE SCRIBE: “Thou art very likely right. And therein lies the abiding grief of my calling. I set down words as carefully and diligently as God hath given me the means to do, knowing even as I do it that what I set down may be struck out, confiscated, burned, or simply lost to damp and rats and the indifference of those who come after me. I know the parchment is fragile. I know ink fades. I know that men of another age may find my work tedious, or dangerous, or merely worthless, and consign it to the midden without so much as reading it.”

THE MAID: “And yet thou dost it.”

THE SCRIBE: “And yet I do it. Because the heavens have made me thus, and God’s will is not mine to gainsay. And because even a fragile and imperfect record is better than none at all.” (His voice drops.) “Though I confess that this very morning I doubted even that much.”

THE MAID (with a flash of her natural spirit): “Only this morning? I doubt things six times before dinner.”

The Scribe looks at her. Something in the tightness about his eyes loosens. He laughs: a brief, real sound, surprised out of him, the first laughter he has managed in several days.

THE SCRIBE: “Ha. I believe thee entirely.”

A quiet settles between them, not uncomfortable. The Maid looks around the room: the towers of manuscript, the inkhorn, the rejected quills, as though seeing them now as things that carry meaning and weight.

THE MAID: “Will anyone read all this, when thou art gone?”

THE SCRIBE: “God willing. That is what I labour for. That someone, in a generation or in five, shall find these pages and know something of what it was to live in this age. The Bull from Rome. The fear of Spain. The long, anxious peace of Her Majesty’s religious settlement. The smell of the city in July.” (A pause, and something almost peaceful enters his voice.) “The sound of the bells on a cold February morning.”

THE MAID (after a moment, with a small, tentative smile): “The burned pottage.”

THE SCRIBE: “I beg thy pardon?”

THE MAID: “Earlier in our talk, thou saidst that all small things matter. That the whole of a life is made of small things. Wilt thou not put that in thy chronicle too? That a maid burned the pottage on a hot Tuesday in July, and Mistress scolded, and they had eggs instead?”

THE SCRIBE: “I had not planned to.”

THE MAID: “Why not? If all things matter, then that matters also. And it is a truth thou canst write without crossing out, I wager.”

The Scribe looks at her. He looks at the parchment. He looks at her again. Something shifts in his expression: not happiness, exactly, but the dim possibility of it.

THE SCRIBE: “Get thee hence, girl. Thou art making me think, and I am already three hours behind.”

THE MAID (rising, gathering her things with characteristic quick economy): “Shall I bring the ale?”

THE SCRIBE (taking up his quill): “Bring it. And leave it. And do not stand over me whilst I drink it.”

THE MAID (from the doorway, her voice brightening as she returns to her own world of motion and immediate things): “I shall tell Mistress you are almost a living man.”

THE SCRIBE (already bending to the page, his voice low and faraway): “Tell her I am doing my utmost.”

The Maid is gone. Her footsteps recede along the passage: light, quick, belonging entirely to the world of the present moment and the immediate hour. The afternoon light moves across the desk as the sun shifts in the July sky. The Scribe writes. The quill does not stop. For the first time today, he does not cross out the line.

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