Write about your first name: its meaning, significance, etymology, etc.
Wednesday, 21st January, 1209
Look at them. Do not turn your face away, master clerk. Look at the wretches shivering by the cathedral porch. You see only filth, do you not? You see the mud of the street clinging to their hem, and you clutch your robes lest the lice leap from their rags to your velvet. You possess eyes, yet you are blind as a mole in the earth. I tell you, there is no holiness in your books if there is no bread in your hand for them.
You ask of my craft? You marvel at the blue I grind from the lapis stone, the gold leaf I lay upon the vellum to make the halo of the Virgin shine? It is vanity! It is ash and dust if we do not see the living saints rotting in the gutter before us. You say I am too harsh, that the Order requires order, that the poor are always with us. Silence! Do not quote scripture to justify your stone heart. To leave a child hungry while we gild the pages of a psalter is a sin that screams to the firmament. It is not a matter of debate. It is the truth, absolute and searing. God does not dwell in the ink; He dwells in the belly of the starving.
Love? You speak to me of love as the troubadours do – a sickness of the heart, a sighing for a face we cannot touch. I know of love. I know it is a blade that cuts away the self. When I washed the sores of the leper by the river Ouse, that was love. It was not sweet. It stank of rot and death. But in that stench, I found the fragrance of Christ. To love is to suffer with the beloved. Anything else is merely a game for children in silks.
I looked into the polished silver of the chalice this morning, before the priest poured the wine. I saw a face there. A woman’s face, lined by the smoke of the tallow candle, eyes burning like coals. It was a reflection, yes, but a deception too. For the mirror shows only the skin, the shell of the walnut. It does not show the humours boiling within, the bile of righteous anger. We are but glass, brittle and clouded, waiting for the light of the Creator to strike us. If we are not clean, we shatter. You are cracked, master clerk. You are leaking your grace onto the floor because you cherish your learning more than your brother.
You ask my name. It is Agnes. Today is my feast, though I claim no kinship with the lamb, gentle and mild. Agnes… from the Greek hagnos, meaning chaste, holy, pure. But the Latin, agnus, calls to the lamb to the slaughter. It is a name heavy as a millstone. To be Agnes is to be the sacrifice. It is to have the throat bared to the knife of the world. My father named me for purity, but life has taught me that purity is not white linen; it is fire. Fire burns away the dross. I am the fire that seeks to burn the indifference from your soul.
So, take your coin. Do not give it to me for my painting. I require nothing but the air I breathe and the work of my hands. Take it to the widow at the gate. Give it all. Do not keep a farthing. If you hesitate, if you calculate what is prudent to keep, then you are lost, and all your prayers are but the bleating of goats. Go. Do it now. The sun sets, and judgment does not wait for the morning.
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